but i’ve had good reason.
life has certainly taken a turn for the better…finally, after ½ a century! fuck. :-)
i won’t bore you all with minute details of what’s been happenin’. i think you all have a fairly good idea from a couple of my last blogs (and hers)
it’s been a fucking amazing few months and, for seriously once in my life, i look forward to my life journeys….
still spinning from the quickness of it all just syncing together…each step a natural, comfortable, feels-just-right forward to the last….each stepping stone stronger, more solidified than the last.
surrounding circumstances falling into natural place like it was meant to be…me, still feeling surreal to it all after so-damn-many-tired-years of staggering through life like an empty-hearted zombie through each unsuccessful, stressful, painful, fucked-up relationship after another….never feeling like it was the right one anyhow. a fucking waste of my precious time until….
i met her
online, 3 yrs ago – thanks myspace ;-)
where a fast, solid friendship quickly cemented itself in both of us…both already partnered at the time, to share our woes and glees through it all.
my most insane dreams would have never conjured up this wonderful melding of two souls outside of anything but a friendship.
i can honestly say that now i know what love really feels like….real love. honest love. happy love.
when i look into her eyes…when i see her smile at me…when i feel her touch….no words are needed - the story of “us” is very clear….a love neither of us has ever experienced shines through like the heavens themselves had opened up…fuck, i know how mushy and leotarded that sounds but that’s the best way i can describe it all.
two commitment-marriage-phobia women have ‘found’ each other through 3 years of friendship, fucked-up times and not-so-fucked up times…who would have thought???
side bonuses: my teenage son adores her, i’ve never seen him take to anyone like this – ever before. i’ve never seen him enjoy conversing with anyone like her…..her beloved 13yr old Bailey has two mommies now to walk her, feed her, play with her and let her snore and fart her happy self either under our bed or stretch her little chunky butt out on the sofa in total comfort. (um, that would be her dog, ok? )
i also feel a warm, comforting welcome from her family/parental units. a small glitch remains, however, on my side of things. i still have my 20yr old daughter to catch up on all of this, who doesn’t necessarily share her brothers open-minded attitude about their lesbionic mother and, although i know my mom/stepdad are fairly ‘ok’ with my orientation and i know they really adore M since they met her last year but i’m not sure how they’ll handle the news we need to share with everyone…..
we two commitment-marriage-phobia chicks are getting married next summer…holy shit ;-)
it just seems like the next natural step in this union blessed by some higher power beyond my (our) understanding.
we’ve chosen Manitoulin Island – in particular, Providence Bay, which has the most stunning sunsets this side of Canada.
below, i’m sharing some of my photogs with you…yes, she has taught me the trade quite well so far…hope you like them
thank you, my love, for choosing me to journey through life with.