"slap-the-walrus"

same old treatment...one of many troubles with the dude-species

2011-06-30T17:36:00.005-04:00

so...for 51+ years, i've been wondering...is it me??is it them??is there even an answer??coming home on the subway - after a long day of training staff, i'm freakin' tired, going home later than my usual time. it's after 4 pm and the subway is insanely busy already...i have a long ride home and DO NOT feel like standing...seeing a spot...tight but free nonetheless...i proceed to sit - middle

good day? bad day?

2011-05-26T19:04:00.010-04:00

today was mostly uneventful as (mentioned in prior blog) i was hiding from the world today...ASSHOLE OF THE DAY:not sure...there were several, i'd say...at some point today i heard a shit load of angry horns from cars and trucks outside our townhouse complex and folks yelling in angry tones...so, yeah, several assholes of the day todayNICE PERSON OF THE DAY:hands down, The Boy, my/our son...he

good day? bad day?

2011-05-26T08:34:00.010-04:00

since today is seemingly a write-off as i decided to turn around and come back home and hide from the world rather than face the daily nasty grind of Toronto, i'll reflect back on yesterday as a start...ASSHOLE OF THE DAY:dude...i've been standing on this platform for almost 5 minutes now, waiting for the subway train...really, who the fuck are you to just shove your ugly ass in front of me out

introduction to: good day? bad day?

2011-05-26T07:16:00.006-04:00

thought i'd start a new kind of rambling (to follow this blog)...how each (or most) of my days go by. kind of like my own personal diary although not the best forum for privacy.lately, each day has been more difficult than usual and i'm finding it harder to get through them - even though i have amazing people in my life like my wifey, my kids, my mom/stepdad...but they don't always see nor

a “wtf???” moment...

2011-03-24T17:32:00.003-04:00

gawd, just freakin’ shoot me and put me out of this perimenopause b.s. misery! this is insane...i am NO longer the person i used to be it’s driving me crazy... i’m now this blithering, sappy, wimpy thing that cries at anything...everything everything that’s said to me is taken on the defensive and sends me into cry-baby mode kinda hard to maintain my

random gripe & whine time...pay no attention

2011-03-10T17:38:00.004-05:00

‘cause no one else does...is it the weather?? freakin’ clouds & rain & snow...wtf is snow still doing here???is it the month?? blah, Marchis it the hormones?? blah, perimeno timeis it the asshole rude, cold people of this glorious city we’re doomed to live in??is it life in general??or is it just all of the above??i’m feeling really...really...blue these daysmore than just blue...i hate

Baby...

2011-03-03T11:02:00.001-05:00

"Lucky"It was a monday, when my lover told me, "never pay the reaper with love only." What could i say to you, except, "i love you." And "i'd give my life for yours." I know we are... we are the lucky ones.I know we are... we are the lucky ones.I know we are... we are the lucky ones, dear.The first time we made love, i... i wasn't sober. (and you told me you loved me over and over!) How could i

addendum: Happy Love Day...

2011-02-14T18:14:00.002-05:00

hmmm, not so muchit's now 6:16 p.m.the day did not get any betterif i didn't know any better, i'd swear there's a full moon which would explain all the assholes everywhere today...but, then, again, what's the excuse for all the other days?but, at least my worry for #1 is gone now - wifey's aches/pains could be a simple explanation of a flu bug according to a coworker that has same symptoms....

you call this a Happy Love day??

2011-02-14T18:03:00.004-05:00

today definitely warrants a blog entitled something like “Happy Fucking Valentines Day”...hahaha (i’m not really laughing – actually, i feel like leaving and hiding in bed all day)... today was anything but a romantic start to this supposedly special day for lovers all around...it doesn’t really help when... 1. i’m frantically worried for my wifey with symptoms in the past few days

inspired once again...

2011-01-12T17:31:00.014-05:00

i’ve been refuelled, so to speak…a spark of life has been reignited inside of me thanks to a sexy, adorable yet fierce little spitfire that is one of my wifey’s employees…we, all 3 of us, and let’s not forget the Samster as well, sharing an insane passion for photography…the same passion that, over 2 yrs ago, my then-only-friend-now-wife discovered in me with her own amazing energies on a mere

the tears of men

2010-12-05T11:48:00.006-05:00

when men cry, what does it mean?for most men in the testosterone world, it shows weakness - the stupid adage that 'men shouldn't cry"...wtf is that all about? surprising at this next statement coming from me...but men are human, have emotions and weaknesses just like the mightier side of humanity, we amazing females ;-)a few days have now passed since i originally wanted to write this blog and

shit i hate...

2010-12-01T15:35:00.005-05:00

this may be the start of a new extension of my blog..."shit i hate"today, i have 2 for ya...#1 picture this: i walk into our work washroom, about 10 cubicles to choose from...i always choose #2 cubicle if it's avail...and it was. so, i'm thinking, great, i can do my poop business before anyone might come in. not 2 freakin' seconds later, some twit comes in, interrupting the natural flow of the

"The Boy" knows how to cook!

2010-11-11T13:28:00.004-05:00

wow...how forgetful am i??? oh my, he's now so insulted 'cause i didn't soon enough...anyhow...Boy likes to cook a family meal on occasion to try out his culinary skills - Wifey and i certainly enjoy as he makes some amazing fooda few weeks ago, as he sometimes does, he randomly out of the blue asked if he could cook...We had Our taste buds enlightened with his own first-time success of

but i AM "nubby-nunu"

2010-11-08T13:45:00.002-05:00

and You're Sobalactic noodle?? LOLa fun-not-to-be-taken-serious spin on lesbian relationships - the first half of this vid is so similar to my wifey and i, We had a gut-wrenching laugh...

no other words needed...

2010-10-16T21:03:00.000-04:00

Thanksgiving - Canadian Lesbian Style :-)

2010-10-12T14:38:00.006-04:00

this year, TG was a bit different for sure. all around family decisions were that my mom would not have a TG dinner this year as we are all getting together anyhow for The Boy's big upcoming 18th birthday and since my mom had been putting in a lot more hours than usual into her funeral-catering p/t job, i thought she should take a well-deserved rest rather than cooking one of her wonderful

Sponge-Mel-Square-Toes

2010-10-06T14:16:00.005-04:00

LMAO...i'm sitting here in dire pain from my stupid-ass fall down the stairs the other night...yup, hard-ass, shiny, gleamy wooden stairs onto the next level of hard-ass, shiny, gleamy wooden floor with broken glass, water, vinegar bottle, box of baking soda (don't ask) all around me...was hard to convince my son and wifey that i DID NOT piss my pants, it was the water from the broken glass - but

I scratched my back with a fork...

2010-09-30T19:43:00.004-04:00

and that’s how my day went...it’s weird the ‘tools’ we find to help us through some nasty-ass stuff when we don’t have the luxury of our Loved One helping us out – yeah, my Baby does amazing back scratches for me...mind you, i look like a raw piece of something after but it works!i have this spot on my back that has a constant itch that gets SO bad, it drives me crazy. when She scratches it for

GREAT CHEESE but...

2010-09-16T20:59:00.007-04:00

not everything :-(so, wifey and i were in the area of this fab cheese shop we'd heard about on Toronto Living. We happened to be in the area over the long weekend and decided to drop in and see what kinds of delish cheeses We could leave with. ;-) 'cause wifey and i are most certainly cheeseLovers galore!by recommendation of one of their 'cheese specialists' (dude was a wee bit on the weird

Julia Child i'm not...

2010-09-04T16:47:00.008-04:00

ok, so not only am i not great at online games but i've sadly discovered i'm no longer so great in the kitchen either! (especially since Honey and i have gotten together...She's a fucking amazing cook!)huh...since turning 50 this year, it seems all my original talents (yes, including video games, online games, etc. and now cooking) have completely left me. W T F???my Baby's been away for the past

i officially HATE...

2010-09-04T15:21:00.004-04:00

...BEJEWELED BLITZ on FB...fuck, i hate it. it's one of those games that makes you feel like a total inept 'tard 'cause you feel like you're just never good enough to beat the other bitches - what i mean by other bitches is the one's on my Baby's FB profile, neither of which i hold any warm feelings towards...oh, and one on my FB friends list who i only hold lukewarm comaraderie with - she

a happy sammie :-)

2010-08-15T13:30:00.004-04:00

so, wifey and i are sitting down for breakie this morning...i'm in a pissy mood and i'm feeling even shittier as i see Her trying hard to be non-chalant until i, basically, 'come around' to a better frame of mind...things just pissing me off all around and doesn't help that the menopausal period is now officially a week late...wtf?? couldn't be that i'm pregnant, right? lol"honey, can i make

wrinkled love

2010-07-26T20:52:00.003-04:00

yup...this is what i hope for in my married uniona loving, wrinkled hand providing a pat of comforta delicate, discrete stroking of love over my handorvice versathis morning, on the subway to work, an elderly Asian couple were sitting adjacent to me...from the corner of my eye, i see as his hand gently and so lovingly brushed over top and down his wife's hand...i couldn't help but smile and the

a moment of poetry again

2010-06-05T14:38:00.001-04:00

http://lostmybraintohormones.blogspot.com/

thoughts...

2010-06-03T23:05:00.001-04:00

http://blindmindramblings.blogspot.com/

You

2010-05-29T06:38:00.004-04:00

The words have been drained from this pencilSweet words that I want to give youAnd I can't sleepI need to tell youGoodnightWhen we're together, I feel perfectWhen I'm pulled away from you, I fall apartAll you say is sacred to meYour eyes are so (brown)I can't look awayAs we lay in the stillnessYou whisper to me"A", marry mePromise you'll stay with me"Oh you don't have to ask meYou know you're all

the 'real' truth...finally

2010-05-22T15:24:00.005-04:00

on the heels of my Big Day...married now 3 days ;-)i keep 'checking in' with Hollywood Farm Girl - Melissa's (Etheridge) now-ex.hoping for a glimpse at the real truth...not Melissa's truth.today, i see it on Tammy-Lynn's blog...and i nod my head to my wife...'i knew it' i sayM says "no surprise", Melissa's been known to be a player for most of her years in the music business...but, really, this

'git 'er dun"...

2010-05-20T12:27:00.007-04:00

LOL...yes, the 'big deed' is now done ;-)WE got married yesterday, in a simple but VERY nice civil ceremony at Toronto City Hall.it felt good to see a couple of Our friends take the time off work to be there for Us...it was heartwarming to see Her brother/his wife and my mom get all emotional during the ceremony...and, a nice surprise...my stepdad came at the end to congratulate Us...baby steps

Our day...

2010-05-11T18:03:00.005-04:00

so...could i BE anymore PUMPED, ya think??? LOLyes, with approximately 7.5 days to go til i wed that sweet, sexy woman, i'm driving folks at work crazy...beaming non-stop from ear to ear like a giggly school girlthey ask me: 'are you nervous?'...um, not at allhow can i be when i know and FEEL in my heart, soul and yes, gut, that this IS the right life partner for methey ask me: 'are you going

overwhelming emotions

2010-04-29T20:39:00.016-04:00

M and i went for an extended walk the other day, with B, to the other side of Harbourfront. soon We'll not have that opportunity so close to Us...We're moving in a few weeks...but that's another story (yay! Our first house together! ). i'll be so glad to be out of this cesspool of idiotic freaks but i will miss the Harbourfront...anyhow, We walked down towards the malting company and decided

just because...

2010-04-16T14:15:00.002-04:00

a fav musician of mine, Jonathan Rhys Meyers...in the wake of bad news today announcing the separation of Melissa and Tammy-Lynn, this song seems to stick in my head today...i'm very saddened by this latest split...beautiful dancing song, babe...this weekend, ok?muah!

and so the fear returns...

2010-04-06T14:15:00.005-04:00

what does one do when years and years of past fear come screaming back at you from a source you wish you'd never known???thinking back on my life from day 1, i mostly remember the main emotion in my heart and soulF E A Rfear from my father...a fear, however, that hasn't existed for many years...he's made his bed and whatever the rest of that statement is...i have no contact with himfear from the

"albino frog with a 'fro"...hahaha

2010-04-03T16:42:00.005-04:00

after a lovely way to be woken up this morning, i, languishing in the nude after-math of a blissful morning, stretch out my leg, halfway, to try and massage her achy ribs with the softness of my foot...i can only imagine the vision of me, blond, curly hair all wild and crazy, as she turns around, laughing her cute ass off and lovingly says to me, "you look like an albino frog with a 'fro right

for whom my heart beats...

2010-03-23T16:58:00.001-04:00

American Idol voters have stupid ideas...

2010-03-12T06:46:00.006-05:00

of who's a great singing talent and who's not...really, wtf???ok, so M gets me all hooked on AI now...as Canadians, we really should watch the Canadian version but they don't have Ellen, eh ;-)so i'm faithfully watching this from the beginning and, aside from Simon's occasional fucked up wrong critiquing of the singers, i'm agreeing with America's vote...until last nightholy shit, wtf (yes,

the 'phallacy' of it all...

2010-03-10T19:17:00.010-05:00

really, W T F??? i know, i know...i'm on such a 'hate-Toronto' kick these days...i'm sorry to those of you who love the big TO but since not having too many positive experiences with this stank city, i cannot honestly portray it in a positive way...although living so close to the lake/Harbourfront certainly has its pleasant advantages... anyhow, i normally don't read the dude-geared newspapers

gee, thanks mom...

2010-03-02T14:28:00.003-05:00

so, it’s official now….as of todaymy parents (meaning my mom & stepdad) won’t be attending my wedding ceremony in May nor the family celebration in June. well, neither will my father but he wasn’t expected to be there anyhow – he’s so far removed from my life he has no clue about anything since 2004 at the least.i’m not sure how i’m feeling but there is a blanket of sadness over me right now. i

and that says it all....bitchsession only

2010-02-27T08:22:00.003-05:00

i just read an amazing blog (the "good boy" one) that set off some more underlying shit that bothers me about myself and those who feel the need to "tell" me who and what i am....this was my response to her...."i LOVE this writing you posted…but it also makes me sad in some way as i cannot quite identify myself in the same manner even though i’d like to – oh yeah, i’m comfortable being myself

what a bitch she is....

2010-02-27T07:13:00.005-05:00

yes, that one there....in the photo aboveit's that time of the month againin more ways than onepms + full moon + stress + frustrations = clusterfuck of emotionsit's been - for the most part of my life - not the most positive or happy relationship we share....the moon and iin fact, it can be downright damaging.and has in past years...that's why this monthly phase oftentimes worries me. the

a mother's role?

2010-02-25T18:59:00.002-05:00

so, really, what IS a mother’s role in her children’s lives when she’s finally, after 20 yrs of depressive, abusive hell, been divorced for 9 yrs from the dead-weight cavity that spawned them??? honestly, W T F???it took me such a long time to shed myself away from this bullshit life called a former marriage mistake….to distance myself from the nauseating drama from both him and his fucked up

Toronto + Pet Owners = DISGUSTING

2010-02-24T19:34:00.007-05:00

WARNING: DO NOT BE EATIN' WHILE READING THIS BLOG!yes, dear folks...this IS Toronto...ok, in all fairness, a part of Toronto....the worst i've seen yet but the kicker is.....it's in a white-collar, top-scale area where you practically pay 1 arm + 2 legs for a mere tiny shoebox in the sky. yes, and i, unfortunately, have chosen to live here since last spring. why???? you may ask....i don't

love for love....

2010-02-20T18:13:00.004-05:00

the other day, coming home on the streetcar, the thought of Her came into my brain for, i'm sure, the 1,000,000th time that day.She occupies that space so much there's barely room for anything else and it's not like it's a huge brainage space to begin with. no worries, i still can think and get my work shit done.as blogged before, it's been a fucking whirlwind since June of last year, and i mean

no, i haven't vanished completely....

2010-02-03T18:52:00.005-05:00

hey all...how the hell have you all been??? it's been a while, i know :-(sorrybeen busy as hell - wedding plans and allbeen on vacation - fantastic time but i had to get pissy with some folks - more on that laterbeen sick post vacation - what else is new?been taking care of my girllots of lovin' to be had and shared ;-)for now, however, i just want to send this to her....and to all of you lucky

Christmas this year.....

2009-12-27T19:55:00.003-05:00

(M bought this for Our first Christmas together)was so special for me this year....the first, ever, Christmas that i was genuinely happy and excited about the holidaysnot that, in previous years, i didn't enjoy Christmas with my children...it was only them that i could focus on and pretend excitement for their sake so their hearts would feel

an Olympic accident

2009-12-18T06:43:00.006-05:00

talk about unbeknownst timing on the dog walk this morning...wowit was a rougher night for me than usual.....not the best platform for waking up cheerfuland i wasn'tnot in the leasti just wanted to escape before i had to deal with the morning encounter and all that comes with it....talk, hugs, etci knew i couldn't deal with all that this morning although, later, i managed a wave only because i

letters i wish i could send....

2009-12-11T11:53:00.005-05:00

Dear EX-gf of my beloved:Let's face the fact that your relationship has been over, done, exhausted, kaput....for at least 2 yrs or more. Let's face the fact that you've been EX's for over 1 year now.Get the Fuck over it!I'm sorry if I'm sounding too harsh on this but the reality is you had almost 6 fucking years to get your sorry-ass shit together, smarten up, appreciate what you had in Her and

Fitting Tune: Never Be The Same Again

2009-12-11T08:00:00.002-05:00

hey Babee....Happy 11 December Anniversary ;-)this tune couldn't have fit better to any other relationshiplyrics:"Never Be The Same Again"Come on. Ooh, yeah.Never be the same again.I call you up whenever things go wrong.You're always there. You are my shoulder to cry on.I can't believe it took me quite so long.To take the forbidden step.Is this something that I might regret?(Come on, come on)

sanctimonious

2009-12-08T17:42:00.007-05:00

i'm not even sure how to write about this right now....i'm stillangrysadupsetworrieddejecteddisappointedoh, yeahdisappointed for certainwhat's causing this influx of emotions you might ask?a phone call from my mom today...first thing this morning...good (not) start to my day(btw....as i'm writing this it's so fitting that "Smalltown Boy" is playing on my i-Tunes...how ironic?? symoblic?? wtf?)

Slack's....a lesbian bar??? NOT!

2009-12-03T18:57:00.005-05:00

ok, folks, i'm in obvious rant mode...lolso, i believe the email thread below speaks for itself....you make up your own mind on this one:this is how it started - my email to them: "Slack's is Toronto's only TRUE women's bar .. ....not a straight or men's space holding a weekly women's event!"I don't quite understand how you can make a disclaimer as above on your FB site and still feel like

10 Navy Wharf - my 'home'...NOT!

2009-12-03T17:59:00.006-05:00

so, maybe this is a small way of revenging on the total fucking bullshit we've (and now my partner since August as well) had to deal with since May of this year.yeah, folks...i move from horrible shithole (previous old blog profile) to this fancy shmancy 46 (or 48?) FL condo building by Concord CityPlace Corp.you'd think, paying $1500.00 smacks/month for a small 1 bdrm w/den condo would encourage

how do you spell holy shit"!?!?!?

2009-11-30T18:05:00.003-05:00

in the form of melted chocolatein my pocketLMAOyup, it’s been a typical Monday as usual…you know, late to work thanks to day-4 cramping to start my day, tons of ‘urgents’ awaiting my studious attention once i drag my sorry ass to my desk and barely time to breath or enjoy breakie.after chatting it up with my friend/co-worker one floor above me, i, as usual, stop in at a member’s office and do the

video time..."Scream"

2009-11-20T11:51:00.005-05:00

ok, i'll post some blog wording soon! jeesh! lolbut, in the meantime, check out this vid: (sorry, got a link it 'cause it's disabled for embedding - fuck!)don't know 'bout you, but i had to change my undies twice! lol*Scream* - Timbaland & two hot HOT bitches, Keri Hilson & Nicole Scherzinger - enjoy!!!!***lyrics excerpt***"Scream"I got a plan for you and ILet's journey across the Venetian

denial? not anymore ;-)

2009-11-10T18:23:00.002-05:00

for a look at the hotties singing it, go to this link....i can't post the actual vid here...sorryhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7iFwc8M0M-Y

songs from my heart....

2009-11-04T10:21:00.005-05:00

to my love....words just aren't flowing like they should...does true love makes us all stupid??? loli've been trying to write my vows for our upcoming wedding....how can i NOT?? have words flow easy from my heart when i know what i feel about her/Us....it's like a fucking writer's block which seems to be in conjunction with my not being able to write poetic prose either lately...fuck, it's so

you call that an apology???

2009-10-30T07:39:00.005-04:00

lol...and the saga continues.....so, i'm up fairly early on my day off, playing Bejewelled Blitz on FB, my babe is at work, we're missing each other crazily and "notifications" of new stuff pop up on my profile....i see said 'friend' from last blog has tagged me on a photo of hers....so, curious, i jump to said photo and see her fingers holding a weird looking object that resembles something like

an apology would be nice….

2009-10-28T18:10:00.002-04:00

so, when a long-time friend says something bordering on insulting…or at the least, when she knows she freakin’ well hurt your feelings, ya think a kcufing apology would be warranted????really…W T F??? (btw…”kcufing” – a new way for me to profane my language – saw it in lyrics for one of my fav TLC songs – keep your sparkling eyes out for other ‘pig latin’ words)ok…so i got my haircut short…

song of feelings...

2009-10-15T17:41:00.003-04:00

ok ok ...another song....sorrylyrics:These are the eyes that never knew how to smileTill you came into my life (do-do-do-do-do)And these are the armsThat long to lock you inside every dayAnd every night (do-do-do-do-do)Girl, and here is the soul of which you've taken controlCan'tcha see I'm tryin' to show love is rightWhoa, oh, oh, oh show and tellJust a game I playWhen I wanna say "I love

for my babe......

2009-10-13T17:33:00.000-04:00

yummy foods....

2009-10-09T12:12:00.005-04:00

OMG...if there is ONE thing that is a constant with me....it's the LOVE of FOOD!yes....yes....yesapparently, according to those who love me, i eat A LOT! lolso, i'm always happy to find new sites with new recipes, new food ideas, new things to EAT!here is one i found by accident...totally...while looking up yummy t'ings i want to bake for mine and M's families for this Thanksgiving weekend....

2009-09-30T20:59:00.007-04:00

hello all you beautiful women…i’ve been silent for a while…sorry.but i’ve had good reason.life has certainly taken a turn for the better…finally, after ½ a century! fuck. :-)i won’t bore you all with minute details of what’s been happenin’. i think you all have a fairly good idea from a couple of my last blogs (and hers)simply put…..it’s been a fucking amazing few months and, for seriously once

me? a nurse?

2009-09-05T07:51:00.005-04:00

***Medieval Lesbians In Love***lol....today, i can write with better humour than yesterday...yesterday i wrote a blog and then felt compelled to delete it 'cause it was too much of a self-pity thing...gotta stop that shithaven't had too much time these days to blog...nor read anyone else's...sorry :-(seems i've taken on the role of nursie to my GF...yup, she did something silly at work last week

fun Vid:

2009-09-04T10:25:00.000-04:00

a fun video just because Ms. Brown is so very Divine ;-)

feeling her more....

2009-08-24T17:06:00.005-04:00

through music....music keeps her close by me when we are apart....ok ok...so right now i'm in a state of new-love bliss...cut me some slack on my mushy ways but i can't help myself ;-)#1:WHEN LOVE TAKES OVER (couldn't use a 'lyrics' vid on this because...EVERYONE ON YOUTUBE GOT THE FREAKIN' LYRICS WRONG!!!! goofs.)lyrics:It's complicated, it always is, that's just the way it goesFeels like I've

the trouble with speaking...

2009-08-20T20:46:00.005-04:00

as she knows, i allow lyrics - too often - to speak what my chicken-ass mouth can'tfor someone who often has verbal diarrhea, it's become difficult for me to verbalize emotions - well, at least positive ones...i still don't seem to have any trouble mouthing off when i'm pissed! lolmy song (1 of 100) for you: LYRICS I'm finding the more I see you the more I can seeNow I'm not hiding anymore Come

learning to emote

2009-08-17T21:55:00.007-04:00

i stroll into the foyer from the heat of early afternoon as a surprising voice calls my name. i turn to see her standing there with anxious eyes but a confused surprise for me. she's come to see if i'm ok because my stupid, childish email worried her....and that was never my intention. when will i learn to emote with better words so not to throw the other party into a confused and worried state

brain ramblings....

2009-08-16T08:28:00.003-04:00

for my poetry-minded friends, new piece for your reading perusal....seehttp://lostmybraintohormones.blogspot.com/;-)

the melding of Rose

2009-08-04T19:09:00.006-04:00

hi all...i know i knowhaven't written in a whilebeen kind of busy ;-)some new - completely unexpected - circumstances have entered my life in the past few weeks.not sure what to make of it all yet butnot needing to overanalyze the situation right now either.so i'll just go-with-the-flow,see where this spiralling river takes me....us.not going to predict anythingbecause i still have to deal with

classic

2009-07-17T21:14:00.002-04:00

things that make me smile tonight

2009-07-17T18:37:00.006-04:00

***Jessica Biel in Powder Blue***compiled striptease (for the best scene, skip to 2:25 - it's all a bit 'skippy' but still worth it)...holy shit, i'm speechless to how incredibly hot, sensual and erotic she is in this movie...or any movie***Imogen Heap w/Jeff Beck - Blanket*** - another song that not only conveys my thoughts/feelings but just happens to be an amazing luv-making song also from the

damn....

2009-07-14T18:26:00.003-04:00

this tune playing on my work PC today...a long forgotten but so-delicious song ;-)

another stupid anti(?)-gay comment....

2009-07-14T18:20:00.002-04:00

ps: i just noticed how i freakin' rambled on about shit on this one...oh well, deal with it ;-)so, let's add to the already highly stupid or **'leotarded' shit that folks say to your face and often, unfortunately, not even realizing how insulting they're actually being.i'm not known for being a hardcore misandrist for nothing because it's usually dudes that say stupid shit to us like today....i'm

dirty girl to mean girl?

2009-07-13T11:52:00.012-04:00

exiting her car, i know i left her hurt and wondering this morning,not a nice way to start someone's day.yet,not even i'm sure as to really why.but,no more than 2 hrs sleep in two nights didn't help my fucking cold, non-communicative mood.still doesn't trump the fucking hot weekend we shared. this unified sexual passion that's been simmering between us for about 2 yrs, give or take. this same

lovely sight

2009-07-11T09:32:00.002-04:00

One of my fav make-out songs, Sexual (Deep Dish Remix) by Amber is so hot…and so is the singer....

my Friday sparkle....

2009-07-11T09:19:00.003-04:00

yesterday, after work, i wasn't near in the mood to post anything that resembled a good day 'cause my day hadn't ended so good...well, at least until an old friend i recently reconnected with was sitting in my living room sipping a glass of Naked Grape...then the mood improved immensely.so, back to my 'twinkle' girl from earlier this week ;-)(i can hear the qualifying laps outside my condo

for your listening pleasure

2009-07-08T19:16:00.001-04:00

my morning treat

2009-07-08T17:23:00.004-04:00

i sit here, heart pounding, as i write this @ 7:15 a.m. having arrived a wee bit late for work. buti don’t care…..i’ve just seen her…..again the adorable and very sexy young lovely i saw several weeks ago.the same lovely one i’ve been keeping my eye out for each and every day since, as i round that same corner where we first ran into each other. i, getting my usual chai tea, morning fruit cup

a Kelly moment...

2009-07-07T18:52:00.008-04:00

ok, need a little break from rocker-lovely JJ so let's add something a little softer, shall we? saw this little vixen on SYTYCD the other night...hmmm, she's gained a little poundage but still has the voice of an angel.....reason for choosing this vid is that i was on FB, trying to beat the ass of my friend in Bejewelled and chillin' to my itunes...this song came on and reminded me of a time she

a little touch of Joan

2009-07-05T21:13:00.003-04:00

i'm in a Joan mood...a little treat for all my girls out there - enjoy ;-)damn...they're all in orange border...oh well, i'm not doing it over again!

reality check

2009-07-03T07:13:00.008-04:00

it's early....i'm on my way out soon to start my busy daymy bi-weekly day off.i will be leaving in a bad state of mind.....my heart races with uncontrollable fears and a severly non-existent self-esteem that feeling of worthlessness has bitten me in my ass againand with more health issues that suddenly creeped into this aging cavity i call my body. this morning i woke to a major fucking reality

song of the moment

2009-06-30T18:55:00.008-04:00

i'm feeling very very nostaligic these days...reason unknown...but, in the past few months, i've been listening more to a shitload of tunes from the 60's, 70's & 80's. this music, even after all these years, has a profound effect on me....almost all of the songs bring emotions out in me that i'd rather keep hidden from the world...from myself...those closest to me know....lovescares me nowloveis

P.R.I.D.E. NOT a political statement

2009-06-26T21:44:00.011-04:00

so, here i am, shooting my mouth off the other day when i blogged about how great my workplace was, how supportive staff were blah blah blah...fucki was asked today to take the P.R.I.D.E. decorations down that i had so lovingly and proudly displayed around my workstation the past almost 2 weeksby management....not my own manager...but her'sandthe legal department did their own little fucking

fuck, i love my therapist....

2009-06-25T19:57:00.004-04:00

to my Judy who knows me like no otheri thank you, endlessly, for getting me through soooo muuuccchh shit in the time we've known each other.honestly, you are a God-send if there ever was one.and a real trooper...i remember when i first came to see you for sessions.you, battling your own hell at that time...recovering from cancer. still taking time for me right after your chemo sesssions, even

oh my...those soft, white shoulders

2009-06-25T19:53:00.002-04:00

i want to lick soooooo bad.you, sweet little young thing with red hair pinned up to reveal your sexy neckline.you, tasty little morsel sit down right in front of me where i then see the creaminess of those oh-so-soft-supple shoulders.i, can hardly contain myself.the urge to lick and kiss that neck, those shoulders, those little ears, is so strong, i feel my panties getting damp.thank you for a

I HATE MY CURVES!

2009-06-25T19:23:00.005-04:00

ok, it's fucking official now....i really really hate my body and all the curves that come with it!it's been a detriment in my lesbian journey! how much louder do i need to scream:I AM NOT A TOTAL FEMME!I AM NOT A GIRLY-GIRL!i can't make myself any more butch unless i get some fucking surgery and remove my tits, straighten out my waistline and cut off all my blonde curlies (on my head, you pervs)

shitty day

2009-06-25T19:11:00.003-04:00

(this blog totally just a purging of my shitty morning – have a drink and a joint for me if you’re going to read it)it’s 10:06 a.m.i’m sitting at my deskat worki feel overwhelmed right nowas more bad, shocking news propels my way, including the loss of my boss...well, for several months anyhow as she's off to another assignment....good news for her....bad/sad news for me...we're so close...we

"fitshaced"

2009-06-23T22:09:00.004-04:00

feeling the need for some laughter tonight, i'm so happy i ended up watching Better Off Ted (Season 1, episode 8 - which is unavailable or just not viewable to us Canadians on those stupid U.S. network sites)...it was one of the most hilarious episodes i'd watched yet...in tonights episode, Veronica and Linda get hammered together. Linda is beyond drunk and asks Veronica why she's not shitfaced

energy...

2009-06-23T16:35:00.008-04:00

where(??) is all this - very hot - energy coming from so suddenly? it’s like i’m a different person….as if i’ve been pumped full of high potency energy supplements or some kind of female viagara LOL. no way i’m complaining. i’ll enjoy it while it lasts…but, shit, it better last through to the end of this coming weekend! gotta finish P.R.I.D.E. with a bang…oops, wrong choice of wordsor not ;-)‘

and the flirting continues.....

2009-06-22T18:13:00.004-04:00

i, putting words into your mouthall in splendid fun;-)yeah, that's right...i'm a naughty tease

a 'lick-my-luscious-lips' moment....

2009-06-22T17:56:00.005-04:00

istepping off the streetcarseeyouwalking towardsmeisee your beautifuleyeslook at mefor a long timeyousweet, innocent, gorgeousigive you my bestsexy "i want you"smileyoureturn the lookback to meoh, how i just want tofollowyouhave my waywithyoulike a drink ofchocolatemilkilovechocolatemilk;-)

"because we're friends...."

2009-06-22T16:48:00.012-04:00

(and she's probably going to kill me for this lol)“Because we’re friends…”her personal journal entry of last year she shared with me yesterday while we were both ‘recovering’ from a sleepless night after taking in some minor P.R.I.D.E. celebrations Sat night.....the sleeplessness not coming from partying too much but from staying up and talking about a 'new level (?)' of our friendship.yeah, btw…

goodbi....

2009-06-19T17:46:00.003-04:00

so, the kick off to P.R.I.D.E. starts tonightand so shall my lifeagain:-)

great co-workers

2009-06-18T20:05:00.008-04:00

ha! :-)this week's been a smidgen better at work than usual...i'm fairly lucky in my workplace - i have an amazing boss, a great team and some crazy-ass-but-great colleagues although i find it hilarious that i'm the "token" lesbian out of 300+ employeesregardless, when i finally did come out a few years back, the volume of warmth and support towards me has been no less than phenominal to say the

something in the air?

2009-06-17T19:56:00.003-04:00

i don't knowi really don'tcan't put my finger on it buti FEEL itthere's something brewing in the airand i think it's a good thingthis time;-)

a treat for myself today....

2009-06-14T17:12:00.005-04:00

hmmm...i've been hit fairly hard with bullshit again these past few days but, hey, that's life.we all know it feels good to go out and buy something for ourselves when we need an uplift, no?yes!of course!in my haste to clear out some stuff today to release my brain of memories i'd much rather forget, i quickly realized that i now had no bed sheets for my bed. shit.ah, but a perfect opportunity to

my own coming-out tale

2009-06-07T12:23:00.008-04:00

or should that read: tail ;-)in the aura of some weird depressive mood today, i was on a journey to scope out and add some new wonderful women to my page....profiles i enjoy reading and getting to know in the hopes they, too, will return the honour.i came across one of the blogs from old crone when i realized i, myself, have never (blogwise) relayed my own tale...i not only came out of the closet

a bit of a piss off, i'd say

2009-06-06T11:15:00.006-04:00

i'm back on blogger with a new profile but i can't allow myself to think too much on why i had to do a new profile because then i'll just get really pissed and i don't want to be in a pissy mood as i'm, finally, going to socialize in the lesbian world tonight...at least i hope so...i've been out of circulation far toooooo long ;-)the fact that i had some freakin' psycho stalker force me into a

well i finally have a one-word label!

2009-05-29T17:30:00.003-04:00

"Futch - What is a Lesbian Futch?Definition: Dani Campbell, a lesbian firefighter from Florida who was one of the contestants on MTV's Shot at Love with Tila Tequila coined the word "Futch." She says the word describes someone who is neither feminine nor butch, but a cross between. "i know i know...i'm a bit behind the times in this knowledge....not that i really need a label...but now it'll be

twinkle my eye...

2009-05-29T17:21:00.004-04:00

i round the corner this morning for tea and croissantyou cross the street to the same placeour eyes meetand i follow in behind youyou, very young yet very sexy butch-dykewith your sassy short black hair, a touch of blue on one sidei'm excited that you actually scope me outa rare treat for meand i smile at youand scope you out tooyou payyou leaveyou sneak a peek over your shoulderat me!i pay i

patience and all that virtue shit.....

2009-05-24T11:16:00.000-04:00

don't get your sexiness all in a clusterfuck...a new profile takes time to piece togethersee ya soon ;-)