feeling her more....

through music....music keeps her close by me when we are apart....

ok ok...so right now i'm in a state of new-love bliss...cut me some slack on my mushy ways but i can't help myself ;-)

#1:
WHEN LOVE TAKES OVER (couldn't use a 'lyrics' vid on this because...EVERYONE ON YOUTUBE GOT THE FREAKIN' LYRICS WRONG!!!! goofs.)



lyrics:
It's complicated, it always is, that's just the way it goes
Feels like I've waited so long for this, I wonder if it shows?
Head under water now I can breath, it never felt so good.
Cause I can feel it coming over me I wouldn't stop it if I could

When love takes over, yeah
You know you can't deny
When love takes over, yeah
Cause something's here tonight

Give me a reason I gotta know, do you feel it too ?
Can't you see me here on overload, and this time I blame you...
Ohhh... Looking out for U to hold my hand, it feels like I could fall
Now love me right like I know you can, we could loose it all

When love takes over, yeah
You know you can't deny
When love takes over, yeah
Cause something's here tonight
Tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight
Tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight

I'll be loving all the time, it's true
Cause I want to make it right with you

When love takes over, When love takes over, When love takes over,
When love takes over, When love takes over,When love takes over,
When love takes over, Over, Over, Over, Over, Over, Over, Over,
Over, Over, Over

When love takes over, yeah
You know you can't deny
When love takes over, yeah
Cause something's here tonight.

#2 IS IT LOVE



lyrics:
i never knew a love
a love that could be sweeter
no matter what my mind says
your music gives me feeling
the moment that we danced
your arms feel like a cradle
and when you take my hand
i was no longer able
love never felt so right before
i need to be with you much more
i cant believe this kind of fate
we can runaway

is it love...(x14)
Love

Im always in a spell
even when im sleeping
youre always on my mind
i hope that im not dreaming
if i had let me stay asleep
dont wake me up but feel complete
i never want to feel it end
what a lovely moment

is it love...(x14)
Love
Love
Love
Love

I want to give you my love all the time (all the time)
i want to make love to you all the time (all the time)
i want to be right next to you all the time (all the time)
i want to be in love with you all the time (all the time)

is it love...(x14)
love
love
Love
Love

and for a little spice....

#3 OH MY GOD - this vid much juicier than the 'official' one ;-)



lyrics:
Put me on the table
Make me say your name
If I can't remember
Then give me all your pain
I can sit and listen
Or I can make you scream
Kiss it and make it better
Just put your trust in me

[Chorus]
Oh my God, go a little slower
Oh my God, what was that again
La da da, let me feel you baby
Let me in, 'cause I understand
Let me feel you baby
'Cause I understand

[Rap]
I understand all
Now climb my sugar walls
Problem solved it's dissolved
with the solvent known as spit
Lickity lick not so quick it's a
Slick ride make my mink slide
'Cause were all pink inside

This can be really easy
It doesn't have to be hard
Here baby let me show you
I'll have ya, climbing up the walls
You got all the problems
I think that I can solve
Why don't you come in here baby
Why don't we sit and talk

[Chorus x2]

[Rap]
You like the top and the bottom
You make a drop and then caught 'em
And when you rock then you've got 'em
Oh my God 'em oh my God 'em

the trouble with speaking...

as she knows, i allow lyrics - too often - to speak what my chicken-ass mouth can't
for someone who often has verbal diarrhea, it's become difficult for me to verbalize emotions - well, at least positive ones...i still don't seem to have any trouble mouthing off when i'm pissed! lol

my song (1 of 100) for you:



LYRICS

I'm finding the more I see you the more I can see
Now I'm not hiding anymore
Come on baby
Let me know how you feel
Come on take me
I can see this is real
Ever since your love filled my life
I see it's changing everything
Don't you know the way you move me
It's so right, it's better than anything
You are the star in the night
Shining for me baby
Love is so right
Come on I'm feeling everything.

You know me in a way like no one ever before
You hold me forever

***totally blushing***

learning to emote

i stroll into the foyer from the heat of early afternoon as a surprising voice calls my name. i turn to see her standing there with anxious eyes but a confused surprise for me. she's come to see if i'm ok because my stupid, childish email worried her....and that was never my intention.
when will i learn to emote with better words so not to throw the other party into a confused and worried state of mind???? fuck, i'm too old to be doing shit like this and she doesn't deserve it.

but i'm touched...and embarrassed (for me)...that she's left her work to come and see me. to talk, to figure out what's caused me to feel and write what i did. i feel stupid and guilty for having made her worry so...worry about us.

gawd....i look at her and can only think how this amazing woman has so much in her soul that she wants to share with me. i can only be thankful that i finally had the brainage to allow myself the opportunity to see what she's really made of....and, fuck, it's a lot of damn wonderfulness. nothing...absolutely nothing....that i've ever experienced with anyone else. not to sound self-absorbed or narcissitic but she's been patiently waiting in the wings for a long time...for me to really see who she is and how great we can be....together.

she was very right.

often times when we lie together quietly, i see the sheer sadness in her eyes and i know exactly where it comes from. that part is my fault and i hope to remove that sadness from those eyes one day soon.

but most times, i see the serious mist in her eyes, her mouth quiet with no smile and i know exactly what she's thinking as she looks at me. when she looks at me this way, the depth of love that escapes those eyes is like a warm, comforting blanket gently laid over me. her whole body and all her movements radiate this same feeling in the way she holds me or caresses me or whispers in my ear.

then there's the passionate, wild side of her that is absolutely mind-blowing. when her eyes exude her desires for me, my insides melt, my brain turns to total mush and nothing else exists.

i was telling her tonight how i usually felt some level of jealousy or sadness when reading the blogs of others who are coupled with seemingly in-sync partners who seem to enjoy a natural bonding of likes and dislikes in their lives together like my JFP and her partner MK....when i read about the places they've gone together, the things they do together, etc etc, i was always happy to read about their adventures tinged with some sadness in thinking "will i ever have that type of relationship for myself?"....and now, in all honesty, i am proud to say "fuck, YES!" lol

maybe it really is a positive stepping stone to a great relationship if you start out being really close friends? only time, my dear friends, will tell. starting out as 'friends' didn't really help my previous relationship but this....this is very different...it feels very different.

in the meantime, i plan on enjoying what she and i share. she deserves the utmost respect from me and most of all, she deserves for me to continue to break down the walls and open up my heart to her - my whole heart. a difficult task for me but worth doing.

brain ramblings....

for my poetry-minded friends, new piece for your reading perusal....

see
http://lostmybraintohormones.blogspot.com/

;-)

the melding of Rose

hi all...i know i know
haven't written in a while
been kind of busy ;-)

some new - completely unexpected - circumstances have entered my life in the past few weeks.
not sure what to make of it all yet but
not needing to overanalyze the situation right now either.
so i'll just go-with-the-flow,
see where this spiralling river takes me....us.
not going to predict anything
because i still have to deal with my committment issues
along with a shitload of other baggage i really need to shed.

simply take it one day at a time
because all i do know for now,
for certain,
is that this 'thing'
she and i are sharing
is fucking amazing
mind-blowing
so natural
so sensual, erotic,
pure intimate bliss
tinged with intense emotions,
two souls colliding smoothly into one.

this 'thing',
so much fun
for both of us
laughter galore,
incredibly great
intense yet gentle

i want to hold on to that
for now,
for as long as it's supposed to be
held on to,
nurtured gently
by two women who share so much in common,
our lives always parallel to each other,
separated by life's events yet molding together as one
like our special 'baby' now named Rose

maybe hope has been granted me again?
maybe.
but i dare not think too far ahead
or make hasty decisions.

just enjoy
she and i.